M U S I N G S – life as we enter lockdown … again

Before my mum died we had the chance to do lots of talking. We were advised she only had 10 to 14 days ,at the most, to live. The cancer had took hold and the doctors could do no more.

That period in time still leaves me cold, makes me feel sick to the pit of my stomach. It was awful. Waiting for the person you love the most in the world to die is soul destroying and extremely hard on your mind and body.

It is without a doubt the hardest thing I have ever had to do . BUT I will always be grateful I got that time and as heart breaking as some of those conversations were, I got my chance to say goodbye to mum properly. I got to tell my mum everything; no stone was left un turned.

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It’s all in the eyes …#transformulas

As Autumn gets well and truly underway , everything moves forward a notch.

Mollie gets her last walk before dark descends which is alot earlier than in the summer months.

I tend to take her across the road to the ( very handy) woods.

A wasted childhood spent watching way too many horror films ( I like to get my adrenaline running fast) combined with an overly vivid imagination means I daren’t venture into them there woods unless it’s in bright daylight, there are birds tweaking around my head and there are plenty of other  people mooching around…

Even then I’ve been known to freak out ! The trees watch me I swear … Continue reading